If I was a Rich Girl...

Hmmm....I haven't really updated in a really long time and forgot that I had this thing. hehe. I am on facebook now all the time. I don't talk to Nate anymore and just kinda think "fuck it" now. Stopped talking to me and all so yeah. Washed my hands of that. I kinda have my eye on someone else though. He works for CVS but not the one that I work at. He works at this one a couple towns away and works with a friend of mine there. He is really cute and he is my age. :) We'll see what happens.

Next weekend is Dave's birthday, so I think that we are all getting together and doing something or going somewhere, but I honestly don't know yet. With him....everything is the last minute. haha.

Alright....I am going to get going and watch some more of this Red Sox game.

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I know that I haven't exactly updated in a long, LONG time.

Let's see...what's been happening....

a week from Wednesday I was rushed to the ER in an ambulance because I "passed out" at a Medical Assistant lecture. The doctor that examined me said that it was just plain passing out and that all test results were normal. Well when I went to my class the following day I guess it was far from just passing out. My professor, who also happens to be an RN and other classmates that were there, said that it looked almost like I had had a seizure. Now....I have never had one before and I have fainted before....but it was when I was little and it was from heat stroke. I had a follow up appt. with my PCP and they had me go and get a CT scan and I received the results Tuesday as being normal. So this whole big thing could just be a fluke, but in April I am going to see a neruologist and have a sleep deprevation test and see what exactly happened and if this is just a one time thing. In the meantime, I am fine now. Just a little tired. I guess that it could've been triggered by many things such as: poor nutrition, inadequate sleep, etc...etc...Hopefully this test in April will let me know something.

I celebrated my birthday on the 6th and it was awesome! I came really close to telling someone that I loved them because I was soooo drunk. Drunk like I have never been. hehe. :)

Well I am kinda tired now and am going to take a rest. Later. ;)

I have been thinking about *him* alot. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I always think about....and probably always will. It never fails....I won't see him for a long period of time and I am fine....but then when I do see him and hang out with him and he leaves....I go through like withdrawls without him. I keep thinking to myself, "I wonder if he is home...." "I wonder what he is doing..." it's crazy.I literally drive myself insane. I really need to get over this....but the question is do I want to?

I am listening to my ipod now and having a grand ole' time.

Tomorrow my next to last semester takes way. I don't know. I know that Nate will be there and I am expecting to see him and everything but I don't know. I got him his Christmas present and everything....so we'll just see I guess.

Cathy's car shit the bed today. She was sooooo upset about it. I felt really bad. I am going to go and bring her to school tomorrow since she doesn't have a vehicle and I know how it feels.

Last night I went out with Dave, Lizzie, and Chuck. We went to Finder's Pub and then to Boston Billiards. I got a Grateful Dead at Finder's and I had heard that their drinks were really strong....but I didn't think that they were that strong. I took two gulps and I was done. It was horrible. I don't think that I am ever getting drinks there again. It was better when we went to Boston Billiards.....I went with my safety drink. A Midouri Sour. Love those. Soooo yummy. And I bought Dave a drink too. He is a fan of vodka and red Bulls. SO yeah.....it was definately a fun night. :)

Then today, I worked at both places but it was not really planned that way. I mean, I was scheduled to work at CvS from 11-4 and in the morning my manager Taren from Pagoda came over and asked me if I wanted to close, because the girl that was supposed to called out. So seeing as how I had nothing to do when I got out, I said sure and as soon as I was done at CvS I went over to the pagoda to close and did an excellent job. Then I stopped at Friendlys to see if the girls were working, which they were and had dinner there and then came home and I waiting now for some songs to download so that I can put them on my ipod.

Well I am going to get my things together for tomorrow morning and go to bed because I am exhausted. Good night.

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I am soo psyched because I finally was able to get my ipod working and it is awesome! I am now officially addicted to itunes. :) It's awesome.

I have finally decided as well....that at this point in my life, with school full time and two part time jobs....that I have no time for a committed relationship. So for the time being....I am playing the field and just dating and that is the way that it is going to be til I graduate. And that's that. :/~

I did some shopping today....okay a lot. But it's shopping none the less. I went to the Solomon Pond Mall and I got a Vera Bradley wallet....I am going to wait on a bag till I get my taxes back, but I will probably get one to match. It is the print, Java Blue. I think that it is pretty. I also got a new Red Sox hat. It's white with a green B and a green shamrock on the back. It's awesome. And then I stopped at Victoria's Secret, since they are having their semi annual sale and all....and got lots of body and hair stuff....then I went to Old Navy and got like five or six shirts for $20 because it was an extra fifty percent off what was already on clearance....and I got a new bag for school. So I think that I am going to break that in soon.

Well I am going to get going and have some fun with my new ipod and maybe do some more scrapbooking.....I have really gotten more into that. :)

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( What I got for Christmas... )

So basically....I have been working....alot. I have had more hours at both jobs because I have had to take out a loan for 4 grand to help pay for my two semesters left at Qcc. So they took a chunk and paid off my last loan and then today I need to go and get a cashiers check to pay for the rest of my tuition today and then I need to save the rest for the fall semester. It's sucha headache...this whole thing, but I really do not have a choice.

I'm not really sure what I am going to do with Nate. I mean...he is really nice guy, total sweetheart....but I think that I have too much on plate right now that I need to worry about and get accomplished before I can think about any relationships. So I am cool with the whole dating thing for now. :)

Well I need to get going and start my day. Need to shower and shit like that and then working tonight....oh joy!

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I worked an entire double yesterday. OmG. Did my feet kill! I now need a pedicure because it would make my feet so happy.

I worked today from 8-3 at CvS and then I came home and had some dinner and then there was a Progressive Supper for the youth group tonight. We do it every year and then do a Yankee Swap at the end...and I ended up with the new Snow Patrol cd. Love them. And they are from Ireland and that makes it even better.

Thursday, Mollie was nice enough to take my shift and I am going Christmas shopping in Boston with Bridie and Cathy....which we were supposed to do a few weeks ago, but because of some circumstances....we were unable to go. But definately Thursday. After the Christmas party, I went to Friendly's to visit Bridie because she visited me last night, during the busiest time and she said that she was flustered about things going on in her life. She was sooo thankful that I was able to come and visit her.

Well I am going to go now and get some sleep because I am exhausted. Good night!

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I can't believe how friggin cold it is outside. Unfriggin-believable. I I had my mother's car today for school and work...and as I was walking down the hill from the parking lot, I must have looked like a retard because I pulled my coat over my face almost trying to keep it warm because the wind was whipping right in my face and it hurt!

( Now onto the Serious stuff )

I think that me and Nate have hit some sort of plato , if you will. We kinda talk, but not really because neither one of us really has a good break from classes to sit and talk. I acutally missed my abnormal psyche class the other day so that I could talk with him because I hadn't seen him in a week from the other classes and finals and other bullshit.

And now onto work. :D hehehe. I am working double every Saturday, from now until Christmas. And even the week after that til New Year's too I bet! It has been crazy, but the thing that I like....is how fast it goes by. I like it that I can have a seven to eight hour shift and it feels like it goes by in like one or two hours. It's amazing. I know that I am going to be making quite a bit of money, but it all has to go to school. Tuition and all that stuff, unfortunately.

I got my nails done today. I was soo excited. I love the first day of having new nails. I got the french because I love it and like the fact that I am not stuck with just one color until I get them done again. :)

Well I am going to get going and go to bed. I need to be at work for nine and bring my mother for an overtime shift at 8! Good Night. ;)

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I am sitting here....just having some nice, warm coffee....and trying to wake up. :)

Today I was have Abnormal Psyche and Clinical Lab. I think that today I might not go to Abnormal...only because I haven't have an actually convo with Nate since....I don't remember when. I wanna make sure that he is doing alright after unloading all that stuff, personal stuff, about himself.

Yesterday I had to work and Kim was there and she said that Amber had ordered her labcoats for being the beauty advisor. There are only two positions within CvS where they give you lab coats....beauty advisors and pharmacy. So I asked Amber if she would be able to order me one because I would be needing one next semester at Quinsig for clinical in Medical Assisting. So I am psyched about that. :)

I took my nails off last night. I think that I am going to get them done again on Thursday. And then next Wednesday I am getting my haircut and next Tuesday I have to go to the dentist. Today I have my classes, like I said, and then I have to work from 5-10 tonight, and since me and the girls were going to go to Boston to go Christmas shopping tomorrow, and now it's not happening until the 21st we think....but anyways...Cathy and Bridie are picking me up on their way home from work...and then I am spending the night there and then....tomorrow Cathy is taking me to go get my paycheck from pagoda, and we are going to the Solomond Pond Mall to go Christmas shopping instead. Cathy is awesome. I love her sooo much! xD

Well I am going to get going....I need to go and get ready for school. Later. ;)

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I am so tired....so this is going to be short.

Today was alright. My mom had today off so I got to sleep later this morning and me and my brother went to school later than usual since there was no rush. Then me and Kelly grabbed a coffee in the cafe and went to class and I realized on the way to class that I never took the online exam that I was supposed to and I was quite mad. So that will be my lowest grade for this semester.

I got to see Nate for a little tiny bit today. Hopefully longer on Wednesday. I am starting to think of plans for Christmas Eve already and I want them to include him...but it also depends on what happens from now til Christmas and whether or not something happens.

I need to do my work for my online class and get that stuff in. I actually should go on the website and see how much more I need to get done.

Well I am going to get going and get to bed....I know it's early but I am tired.

Good night. ;)

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Today was the trip to New York City. It was awesome...except the bus driver kinda sucked. We went to Ground Zero and Canal Street and I bought a "coach" bag and wallet and a pair of "chanel" sunglasses. And then we headed back uptown to the theatre and grabbed a quick bite to eat ahead of time. The Producers was soooo funny! OmG. We loved it. And then we walked up Times Square and I got one of those fuzzy hats, but in bright pink because I have a black peacoat and it goes with anything....so I got that.

I turned in my paper in Clinical with no problem yesterday. The only thing is that I needed to have five pages and only had four. I found out info about taking my certification test next year....and where I may possibly be interning. :) I can't wait.

Well I am going to get going and go to bed because I am really REALLY tired and need to go to work early in the morning. Good Night. ;)

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I have a research paper that is due tomorrow....and I need to take a test online for my Abnormal Psyche class. I keep trying to get myself pumped up saying that it's the end of the semester and I am almost done with this semester and I am done....and yeah. I need to get my ass in gear. I also have to go on and do my online class work. Ick. Soo much stuff to do.

I dropped my mom off this morning and then went to Dunkin and got an iced coffee. Sooo good. And then I am going into work from 1-4 because I was supposed to have a dentist appointment but it got cancelled and I needed to reschedule it and everything....so yeah. I called my boss last night and told her that I would work today if need be.

Well I guess that I should quit stalling and start my paper. Later. ;)

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So....Thanksgiving was pretty good. Except for the part where I was sick the night before with a cold and it has gradually progressed to worse....but now I am a bit better. :) Thank God!

I think that this upcoming week....I am going to start writing out my Christmas cards, which reminds me....Melissa! What is your address in New York?! I wanna send you one too! I will give you mine as well if you want.

Work.....ewwww. I worked at 6am on Black Friday til 1am.....then I went home for a few hours and slept....then went back to the Pagoda and worked til quarter past 8. Then yesterday, between the two jobs....I worked from 8am-10pm. It was crazy. I couldn't feel my feet by the end of the night! OUCH!

Let's see...what else....OH. Next Saturday, my mom, me, and her friend are all going to NYC for the day and I plan on going to Canal Street and we are seeing the Producers on Broadway. That is going to be awesome! I can't wait! So much fun.

Then on the 7th, me and Cathy and Bridie are going Christmas shopping in Boston. It is going to be awesome. :)

Well I am going to get going and be selfish and have more time to "veg" out before I need to get ready for work. Later. ;)

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School is really starting to piss me off badly. Not only should I have graduated this spring...but in thinking that I would be graduating next fall....it is looking like it is going to be happening the following spring....according to my advisor/prof. I am not happy at all. :/

We did vitals today in my lab and I am doing better at the whole blood pressure thing and everything else. I love that class. I never thought that I would say that about a class....but I do. My Abnormal Psyche prof. opened our exam online so sometime in the course of the weekend....I need to complete that. And then I need to schedule my classes for the following semester and it is going to be jam packed....yippee. Can you feel the sarcasm?! hehe.

Well I am going to get going and go on and arrange my classes and stuff. Good Night. ;)

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My mother called me today and told me that Mrs. Whittall is buying tickets to the Producers when we go to New York for the day on the 2nd. I am excited. It's gunna be the second broadway show that I have ever seen. A few years ago, I went and I saw Gypsy with Bernadette Peters and it was amazing! :) Can't wait.

I think that a relationship is going to start pretty soon if I am correct at the point we are now at. He is just such a sweetheart. And cute to boot! I need to get a picture of the two of us so that you can see it. He really is one of the nicest guys and I am such a bitch for not noticing that earlier. I really am.

It's almost been a year since we have had my dog. That is crazy! It's interesting now though that she can sing...hehe.

I need to start thinking about classes for next semester. I know that he is going to be there next semester so that makes me happy. I hope that if something does happen that my mother will work with me on getting around since he is a few towns away. Almost to the Connecticut border away.

Well I am going to get going on my homework. Good Night. ;)

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I talked to him today in messages. He said that he still does like me, but needs some time right now, which honestly is fine with me....even though I really do want a relationship right now. So if I have to wait, I will wait. Basically, he sent me a message saying that he was tired of be fucked around with and everything and he just wanted some time so I said that it was fine.

I bought some Biore style Cvs strips and just put one on. I think that I like Biore better though.

So I was supposed to have an exam tomorrow in my Clinical class but I guess that it was cancelled because I have no idea. So we are still having our lab.

I had to get a filling today at the dentist....that was fun. I was told that I looked like Adrian from Rocky because I couldn't feel my upper lip. hehe.

Well I am going to get going now I guess. Later. ;)

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I was actually able to get up this morning. I suprised myself. :)

So....Friday. Yeah...that was a goooood day. Let me indulge.

Tiffany was nice enough to give me a ride to work...I got there at three and didn't really have to work til 4 at Pagoda. I went into CvS and I usually go in there and use the bathroom to change into work clothes. So I did that and then I came to the front and Mollie was working so I was talking with her. Then Mark comes up and in front of Mollie and a line of customers, proceeds to reprimand me about maintaining hours and how I didn't do it properly and blah blah blah...anyways kinda raised his voice and totally humiliated me and everything and after he said that I was just in total shock because I couldn't believe that he had just belittled me like that. So I am thinking, well if he is as good as he thinks he is, he should have taken me to the side, or brought me to the backroom to talk.....not do it in front of other people. I lost all respect for him. I am calling my manager today to tell her that I will be in tomorrow to talk to her and will ask her not to schedule me with him again. I can not deal with that.

I saw Dave yesterday. We went to breakfast and Lizzie had Jack and Amanda and Jeff and myself went to Denny's and then we headed to a Crop Walk that we did in the Main South area and it was a good time.....except I wore the wrong shoes, because I really wasn't planning on doing it....and I got home and had the biggest blister on my foot. It hurts sooo bad. Awe well.

I gotta get going and get ready for school. Later. ;)

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I had to work today....all day. I worked with Joy and Kim. Mark keeps getting worse with all of his sheinanigans at work. The idiot.

I am just sitting here now....kinda talking to Nate though messages and chillin loving my Mike's. :)

After I got out of work, I went to go and pick up my mom from work and we went to A.C. Moore because she wanted decorations that she could make for the church fair next month, and she found them, but they also had these decorations that were clay-like. I bought five for the fair. I am thinking of buying a silver sharpie or something and putting 2006 on them. I thought that it would be a cute idea. :)

I think that I really do want something to happen between us, me and Nate I mean. I really do. I don't really know what has come over me, but I think that it is kinda cool. :)

Well I am going to get going and go to bed because I am exhausted and am getting up earlier tomorrow. Good night. ;)

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I am soooooo tired. OmG. I need to go to bed.

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Well I am going to get going and go to bed soo good night. ;)

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I found him. I found him on myspace. I noticed that he posted a blog about me. I am not really sure what I wanna do about the whole thing though. We will have to see. I still see him around school and everything and he looks at me all the time....but I don't know if it is an "i hate you" look, or "I still really like you" look. Whatever.

This past weekend we went to the White Mountains in New Hampshire and the whole weekend went by sooo fast! There were 5 kids up there all under the age of 10 and the youngest was just over a year. It was a crazy weekend and my parents said that it was not relaxful what so ever. We found out through my grandfather that his mother passed away on Saturday afternoon. She was 92 or something and her husband just passed away last year so they were headed up to Canada, because he is originally from there, for the funeral and services and everything.

Well I am going to get going because I have the entire day off and I plan on getting caught up on Homework and studying and all that jazz.

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